Three more months and I'll finally finish my university life and every person I met keeps questioning me what I wish to do for my future. That and whether I would like to stay here or go back home. To be honest, I don't know - and that's the answer I started giving to people because some people just don't understand while others just say that it's not a good career. Though I shouldn't listen to someone whose only world is stuck within China.
Lately, these thoughts kept on penetrating my mind. I don't wanna work in a lab where I have to do somewhat similar things 24/7. I don't wanna work as a salesperson who has to boast about how great someone else's products are. I wanna work for myself and I want a different environment as frequently as possible. I want to believe in my own products and sell my own creativity.
I don't wanna do the same thing for 3 years straight and postpone my dream until I'm 25/26. Who knows I might just die in the middle of working or get a horrible disease or a zombie parasite starts invading into people's brains and forcing them to eat roaches!
To be honest though, I do have something in mind that I wish to do as a living but it's such a cliche job as a millennial isn't it? I want to produce my own videos as I work and travel across different countries. I've always enjoyed entertaining people - even if it's sexual jokes or playing music or hardie-har-har. Even as a 10 year old kid sitting on the toilet, clenching my small tuckus while contemplating about my future, "comedian" was a thing that popped into my mind!
Just a day ago, I saw an acquaintance of mine who just started a YouTube channel as well as a fanpage on Facebook and oh how I envy her confidence! I wish I could do every video I've imagined in my mind and just go along with it and not caring about how people think of me. That and another friend who wishes to be a singer and dares to upload her voice along with her face on. She's an inspiration to me - even though she doesn't know it.
You know, at first I wished I had a friend who had similar interest so I don't have to do this alone, but I guess things just don't work out this way for everyone. I just have to make friends after making several videos myself. Sounds like a video of me playing solitaire and wishing I could play strip poker with someone.
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